you know never knew how much loneliness and depression would bite me in the ass so hard. until now

battling with it is challenging and really painful to me to the point its effected my daily activities such as cooking. cleaning or even drawing or making music. this struggle is like how your fighting fire as your entire path Infront of you is crumbling and washing away slowly Infront of your very own eyes. and i had to watch a brother wash away right infront of my eyes. and having to deal with that also has been a stab in my chest.

so now im figuring on how to combat it instead of saying "ima do a hiatus" "ima leave the internet" yada yada shit.

so i begin to make music. doing modeling. or even literally cooking to combat this painful experience i am experiencing. and honestly its helped me more than just covering the broken scars with dirty bandaids or stitching the open wounds with broken threads.